a theif

Wake up 7am , the oldest already has the car running. Get in the car, drive him to school. Get the second one dressed, out to the car and drivin' to school. Back for the third, now the first two in the front seat cuz they are older. The youngest , most impressionable ofcourse goes to Her seat behind the passenger seat. We drive and talk , she says " mom , wheres the dvd player?" I say , looking back tword where it would have been, " I don't know , someone must've taken it." The hurt look on a six year old face is something no one should see. The violation she feels at that moment you would really hope waits for an older, wiser person.

Some would say "privelige" because we have dvd players , kinda I guess yea but this day and age they come standard in some cars now.... so I'm not thinking it's so "priveliged" anymore. This thing that happened to us today is horrible to us (me , Luke, Victoria, Tim, Andrew) WE suffer, no one else really. The people that made the desicion to steal from us don't care. The consequences will not effect them at all. They do not wonder if we will be upset , they do not care one way or another. Their needs are greater than ours in the minds of people that are able to steal . Who the hell decided my kids old broken dvd players should be someone elses.... people like that suck !

I am angry @ myself @ my husband!! @ whom ever thinks they are more deserving of my stuff than I am!! I want to scream at them , I want them to be as hurt as they have made us.
Prolly not such a good thing, but I am so upset. I am trying to find ways to be less angry, it is difficult. I am all over the place with my emotions, just not able to get ahold on them. Then with that makes me even more upset. Why /how can one act of selfishness make one feel so much all at one time. This one "thing" shouldn't stir up so much in one person. I want to go back to sleep and wake up and not feel so much anger and pain. Wake up again without the one act that has left me violated.


blahhhh , life sucks somedays ! I will write , pray, and try to make others around me think about other things to keep them from getting so angry about this because if they get as angry as I am, I will (on top of all the rest) feel bad that they feel this way too. :( Im just goonnnnaa be sad today!