Feelings since Thursday

I woke up in the morning, just like every morning. Time for school, kids off then back home to wait for them to get out. I picked up the paper out of the box. Into the house and look down at the front page. Dominick Calhoun. Poor little 4 year old boy was taken off life support, after a 4 day beating , torturing, violent weekend he was taken off life support and died. Brain dead on the day he was found lying listless on the floor. I just read thru the tears that welled up , the thoughts that swirled around in my head about what this poor baby went thru. About why , no one could hear , walls are thin. How anyone could , how anyone wouldn't help, how a baby could live as long as he did with all that unfolds as to what happend over that 4 days of Dominicks last moments.

So many things went thru my head , watching news , facebook , Flint journal ... days following , more news , more of what happened over that short time. Who found Dominick and the reasons why , he was even found.... drugs of all things. Drugs for Dominicks aunt, she instead of calling the police , went to the grandfather. The mother that did not get her baby help or get him away from this torture. She "tried" and was hit as well, in part. That monster would have had to kill me.

For me, I wouldn't be able to see this and walk out/or stay period. Everyone, I guess has "their" own thoughts on what they would do in that situation, but c'mon. You see a 4 year old baby lying on the floor, obvious injury and you leave. No way! So much emotion from myself , about a boy I don't even know. That fact means nothing, Dominick deserves every bit of emotion that every person that reads about this musters up!! Every child that has ever had to endure any abuse deserves this kind of emotion!

I have 4 kids ,(which I hugged the ones closest for a very long time) different age ranges, I did the best I could with the resources I had/have at my disposal. If there are people on this planet that hit there kids , like that and think it is ok , they seriously need to talk to me! Like that, I mean fists/slap, face, punch, grab so hard you freakin leave marks. Common sense people , it is not that difficult! My anger emotions obviously have kicked in now after 4 days after the first report of Domincks torturious death. Things like this make me want to be better! After this kind of tragedy I want to be a better person, I want to educate people that believe hurting / spanking / hitting kids is an ok thing to do. My kids make me crazy somedays, as all kids do. Over the years I have changed the way I "deal" with my kids. My oldest was not as fortunate as my second child , and my second wasn't as fortunate as my third , or as my fourth for that matter. I have raised them all with what I was given, which in the begining wasn't much. I hope that I have learned things over the years and I am helping my kids be the best people they can be. I pray everyday for peace for them! I know God has given Dominick peace, I just wish it could have been through his life not his death. I hope I can give my kids peace in life as best I can!


I am so sadened by Dominicks torturious 4 days, that my emotions have definitly run amuck. With that comes rambling, oh well , I hope this makes me feel a bit better. Which would be the point of me writing in the first place. and so I go on , one more life altering occurance to live thru.